My
brain is going 'round and 'round with ideas and things to do and project to
finish and... Ughhhhh, breathe in, take a deep breath, let it out slowly,
relax. I can't even think of the Open Studio Tour on September 21 and 22. I am
so caught up in getting the book finished and putting my day trip stories
together for the next book. I don't even have one book finished and the next
one already has many chapters. Aiieeeee!
What's
this doing to my other art projects? I do have printed photos ready to mat and
there are two big drawings on the stand-up easels that had been started last
year and there's two new ones in process on a table easel. There's the one I
had considered finished before I went on my trip in January, but now that I
look at it, I may work on it more. No, wait, I have to leave that one be and
finish these others.
But
what about my paperwork and filing? It's been piling up since the first of the
year and I haven't made any effort in recording the information and putting the
papers away. The only thing I have recorded this year has been mileage.
My
mind is like a north-point needle and keeps going back to THE book. I can't get
my questions answered. I know what I want to accomplish, but I don't know if it
is feasible. What if I've spent all these months working on this and it turns
out it's too expensive to print, let alone have anyone be able to buy it?
I
want to go off on more day trip adventures. There's places I want to go, sites
I want to visit, and people to meet. I want to explore old ruins and find where
the trains once ran. I want to write about these adventures and take many
photographs of my findings. I want to research history of the area and talk to
residents.
But
THE book has to be finished! I can't abandon it. I've put too much effort into
it and there are people who are waiting to buy copies... if I can keep the
price affordable.
This
is so difficult. I am a person who works in-the-moment and I have to do things
when I'm inspired or it all falls into the black hole of
dreams-that-never-came-to-fruition. Right now I want to jump in the truck and
head out, but I have an interview/adventure on the books for Friday, so I
really need to stay in and get other work done today.
Oh,
life is so fraught with decisions, ha ha. At least I am out of my funk and
feeling good and excited about life again.
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